Peaks

 

I think my life is currently at its peak.

My life has never been better than this.

It’s been a while since I don’t have to worry about various adulting matters and enjoy the moments I spend simply being me. A life where even tho I’m working a mundane job, I will work without that much stress that I will carry out later even after clocking off. A life where I could afford to be generous to myself and even spoil my mom a bit. A life where my best company is only myself and the time I use to indulge in my interests and hobbies. A life where I’m investing in myself and my happiness.

I guess it’s true that one can easily dream and thrive better in more accommodating circumstances. I mean, look at those kids raised from well-off backgrounds. Chances they’ll get success unless they mess up by letting them into the wrong circles when they grow up or they are simply very unlucky. I remember I was once always loud about this ‘circumstances’ thing. It was like my way of coping.

“It’s okay that this is the only thing I can achieve. I’m doing fairly well despite my circumstances.”

“People have their circumstances so I shouldn’t compare mine to others. Always be grateful.”

My circumstances this and that.

That was my mantra to ignore all of the jealousy and regrets that slowly crept into the back of my mind whenever I thought what I was doing was not enough. Or when I saw how far in life people around me compared to myself.

Fortunately, I feel like the universe finally giving me the chance to shine.

And with my current situation, I can finally gain the confidence I used to have during my youthful days to dream again. Well, maybe the less ambitious dreams. Dreams that are humbler and more realistic. But that doesn’t mean I am afraid. It’s just the less ambitious dreams are what align with my current self.

I’m sure that one day, there will be more chances when once again, I’ll say “I think my life is currently at its peak”. And hopefully, I’m going to be proven wrong because, in fact, my life will continue to get better and better.