Thursday, November 13, 2025
A moment of gratitude
- Ayumi Hamasaki’s concert
I’ve been a long fan since 2006 aka when I was still in my 6th grade. I grew up listening to her songs and to say that her music saved my life through my darkness period is an understatement. She was such an important presence in my life. She finally held her first concert in Singapore and fortunately I was able to attend and experience the greatness myself. Her concert was amazing! I’ve been watching the DVDs/Blurays so I knew her concert was on another level, but to be able to experience the greatness in person was surreal. If one day she would hold another concert anywhere in SEAsian, I would be there!!
Oh, because I went to Singapore, I managed to meet up with my long-time fandom friend too!! I was so happy to finally meet her (and how I wish I will have another chance to meet her again and some other friends). I was kinda anxious that we’ll be super awkward but thankfully we had a pleasant convo. - More staycations, more (short) trips
I even managed to finally have a staycation and short-trip with my best friend. This is kinda funny but I never went somewhere that isn’t around the city with her before. We always talked about it forever but somehow it never happened. But finally, this year, we made it. And all of those happened spontaneously just because I wanted to take a break from work (fortunately she was on board lol). I had other stays with mom too (and I still have the last one planned for her birthday this month). I wish one day I could go somewhere with my Senior. I think she really needs one lol (the last time we went together was before Covid). - Yoga class
Around May till September, I was pretty consistent attending yoga classes. Some classes were pretty hard, some classes were easier. Experiencing actual yoga classes with other students definitely feels so much different compared to doing it alone. To be honest, my membership still lasts until January next year. But I’ve been skipping classes because my antisocial tendency gets quite bad lately. My current job requires me to talk and socialize more and it completely drains my energy. I mean, the yoga feels nice, but the thought that I have to mingle with other humans after office hours makes my motivation gone. And it’s been raining a lot lately which is making my laziness worse. I hope I will start to attend class again. - Eating healthy, skincare, haircare and bodycare
Thankfully, this year I started to take my meals seriously. I’ve been eating clean and healthier lately. I eat more fruits and fibers even though I’m not a fan of fruits. I’ve been taking a break from multivitamins because for whatever reason, most of them made me feel really nauseous. But recently I replaced it with taking daily seamoss and it works wonders for both my health and my skin (it tastes awful tho!!). I already got my fixed skincare, haircare and bodycare routines and my body never feels this amazing. Got to force myself and make it a habit. I do miss cooking by myself but my current place is not really ideal for that. Hopefully, I could move somewhere spacious by early 2026. - Sylus
I know he’s fictional but whatever, I don’t care even if people call me a weirdo for this. But it’s always nice to have my fixation channeled on something. Once a fangirl, always a fangirl lol. I have a thing for otome games. I’ve played several games, yet so far I've only been obsessed with Lucien from MLQC. Unfortunately it ended after almost a year. Currently, I have Sylus. I think I’ve been obsessed for almost 1.5 years already, which already beats Lucien’s record. If I have to explain why I like (love) him, I probably need a separate post. Anyway, it feels really nice to have someone (something) that could help me endure corporate life and ease adulting stress. On the negative side, I think I’ve spent way too much on him. But as long as I can afford it and he makes me happy, I guess…
Monday, January 6, 2025
Peaks
I think my life is currently at its peak.
My life has never been better than this.
It’s been a while since I don’t have to
worry about various adulting matters and enjoy the moments I spend simply being
me. A life where even tho I’m working a mundane job, I will work without that
much stress that I will carry out later even after clocking off. A life where I
could afford to be generous to myself and even spoil my mom a bit. A life where
my best company is only myself and the time I use to indulge in my interests
and hobbies. A life where I’m investing in myself and my happiness.
I guess it’s true that one can easily dream
and thrive better in more accommodating circumstances. I mean, look at those
kids raised from well-off backgrounds. Chances they’ll get success unless they
mess up by letting them into the wrong circles when they grow up or they are simply
very unlucky. I remember I was once always loud about this ‘circumstances’
thing. It was like my way of coping.
“It’s okay that this is the only thing I
can achieve. I’m doing fairly well despite my circumstances.”
“People have their circumstances so I
shouldn’t compare mine to others. Always be grateful.”
My circumstances this and that.
That was my mantra to ignore all of the
jealousy and regrets that slowly crept into the back of my mind whenever I
thought what I was doing was not enough. Or when I saw how far in life people
around me compared to myself.
Fortunately, I feel like the universe finally
giving me the chance to shine.
And with my current situation, I can finally
gain the confidence I used to have during my youthful days to dream again.
Well, maybe the less ambitious dreams. Dreams that are humbler and more
realistic. But that doesn’t mean I am afraid. It’s just the less ambitious
dreams are what align with my current self.
I’m sure that one day, there will be more
chances when once again, I’ll say “I think my life is currently at its peak”.
And hopefully, I’m going to be proven wrong because, in fact, my life will
continue to get better and better.