I’m done trying to mask the ugly side inside me with smiles and bright words. As I smiled, my heart ached and I felt lonelier than ever. Pretty words were merely a shell to hide my pity soul that wishing to die for the umpteenth times. So I said, “It’s enough.” I wanna live an honest life even when the honest truth about myself might look like a terrible scar to other people...

Today, I’m officially 25 years old. Fuck my life. Okay, for some I might be dramatic af but believe me, if I’m being honest I’m more scared than excited about this new age of mine. Especially when you’re an Asian woman, there is so much pressure from people around you that you supposed to live a settled life AND getting married by 25. Fortunately (?), I’m an introvert and I don’t hang out with...

Continuing my previous post, let’s move on to June 6. Initially, I really wanted to bring my senior to give two Japanese restaurants a try. One is Echigoya Ramen—I haven’t tried this one but I’ve seen many recommend this place (plus I don’t like the ramen from Yoiko) and the other is Kashiwa—I’ve visited it once with Djoeng and holy moly, all the food I’ve had before taste delicious! We really wanted to...

I know this update is long due but here you go. Last week had been a big holiday week for Indonesians. Most of the migrants who live in Jakarta went to their respective hometowns, allowing the usually busy and crowded metropolitan to have it breaks. As for me, I'm staying in Jakarta and basically enjoying my Eid holiday as lowkey as possible. May 30 was my last day at work before the long holiday starts....